Happy Monday! Just popping in on this fine February afternoon, because I’ve been wanting to make an effort to publish posts more frequently; and the best way to get something done is to just do it! (Constantly having to remind myself this, re: scheduling dentist appointments, washing my car…) I realized it’s been a hot minute since I truly divulged my emotions-of-the-moment, which led me to the discovery that I’ve been in a super chill (probably *too chill) headspace. For me, my life has become this sort of dance between mindsets, depending on my needs. Over the past 6 or so months – especially – I’ve been really working on mastering my mind and ruling my thoughts, as opposed to letting them control me – because trust me, they will if you allow them to.
A major player in this has been the skill of deeply understanding myself and my patterns; some moments of my life are filled with high-anxiety and worry, and I’ve learned to balance those with grace, patience, and calmness. Others are doused in inspiration, passion, and excitement for the future – during which times, I practice movement — getting out of my head & accomplishing tasks in the physical realm. I’ve come to understand and accept that both of these seasons serves its purpose, and I’m a better and more aware person because of it.All of this processing is thanks to my attempt to understand where I’ve mentally been, as of late. During my day-to-day, I’ve found myself straddling both ends of the spectrum; leveraging any anxiety to aid me in preparing for my next steps, while using more serene moments to reflect, remain present, and thoroughly enjoy the significance of certain accomplishments I would likely rush past, otherwise.Also on my mind: 2020 is going to be a major year! I know we’re two months in (even though January alone felt about 11 months long…), but it still feels worth noting. This week, I signed with my dream agency in both NYC and LA and — I’m elated! This goal has been on my list for a while, and as I’ve been evolving, along with my career and career aspirations, it truly feels like everything is aligning in the most organic and serendipitous way; it was difficult for me to not instantly revert to incredulousness. But when it’s right, it’s right — and things don’t need to be perfect in order to be celebrated or appreciated (because newsflash: nothing will ever be).
When I was 11, my biggest dream was ‘to be bi-coastal’ — who even taught me that term/ idea?! Can’t answer that. But I can tell you that life has a way of coming full circle, and if there’s a goal or dream your heart is set on – it’s no coincidence. By the time I was 20 (or so), I had essentially abandoned that dream. It was on the back-burner, as college, budgeting, planning, and ‘practicality’ took precedence in my life. At some point I’ll create a detailed timeline of my life (even if only to succor my own poor memory), but for now, all that matters is: I’m somehow back in that place. Living, being, and working bi-coastally is suddenly a reality to me, and I can’t help but laugh at how naturally it occurred. (But – let’s not mistake naturally with easily.)I’ve been using the 424 Cell Phone Case by Hammitt LA during my week gallivanting around NYC – and it’s been a life-saver! Seamless access to my cellphone, chapstick, debit and metro cards — AKA all I truly need out here.
So, that’s what’s consuming my mind today (and the fact that I am SO thirsty. Too many lattes… and margaritas over the past week). How are you all feeling and doing?! I’m off to hydrate and get on with the rest of my day, but I hope you have the best Monday — whether it’s a day off for you or not 🙂