Skip to content
Menu
    • About
    • Contact
    • Collaborations
    • Life
    • Style
    • Adventure
    • Modeling
    • Shop My Instagram

Quarantine Thoughts

Author: Kendra Lauren
Published on: April 17, 2020
Comments: 0 Comments
Sidebar

About Kendra Lauren

4I8A0390 - Quarantine Thoughts

Hello friends! I'm Kendra Lauren- a model, blogger, and free spirit, living in Orange County, CA. LKL is where I share my adventures as a 20-something, navigating life, style, and everything in between. Photo by Kelley Grisinger

This error message is only visible to WordPress admins

Error: No posts found.

Make sure this account has posts available on instagram.com.

Subscribe to Living Kendra Lauren via Email

Enter your email address to subscribe to Living Kendra Lauren and receive notifications of new blog posts by email!

IMG 0009 - Quarantine ThoughtsIMG 0022 - Quarantine ThoughtsIt’s been a (very) hot minute since I got to posting, and I’m now recalling drafting my last post in a Brooklyn coffee shop, on one of my final days spent in NYC. For one thing: I miss the city immensely! Truly more than I can convey; My last visit ended in the most serendipitous of ways, serving me another reminder of how ‘in the right place’ (literally, and figuratively) I was. Now, two months later (how is that even possible?) the city’s on my heart and mind more than ever, as this pandemic overwhelms the country, and NYC has claimed the daunting title as the epicenter. In short: sending love to everyone during this uncertain time – and especially to all of New York, as you have a special place in my heart. 🙂

While it’s been nearly two months since I’ve sat down and written a blog post, I think about writing one every single day. I have my fill of excuses I employ to talk myself out of doing so, but truthfully, on many (recent) days: I have simply not wanted to. The last couple of months have only strengthened this argument; things aren’t anywhere near normal, and I’ve needed to honor my mind and spirit’s longing to wander and explore, without the threat of immediately returning to a disciplined routine. So far, this year has proven itself to be one of a spiritual journey, and I’ve been taking advantage of this quarantine to delve into that concept.IMG 9973 - Quarantine ThoughtsMany themes have emerged (mentally) for me during this season, and while every day is a different story, a common one has been the benefit of releasing the pressure to find the lesson in every situation. I often view life as this game, with lessons to be learned at every turn – constantly working on advancing toward the next level, dedicating yourself to training and preparing for what may materialize around the next corner. Now, in large, this is still how I look at a great aspect of life, however that doesn’t subtract from the fact that that mindset gets really (*insert all curse words here*) exhausting.

Back in March, I let myself become beyond overwhelmed. There’s the constant self-inflicted pressure to be a certain way, then throw in: insane expectations (from others + yourself) regarding dating, pressure to always feel, look, smile, behave, and respond perfectly… because that’s your job(!), the people in your life not understanding or relating to the season you’re in. So. Many. Unmet. Timelines and goals. Then the shame you develop once you realize you’re letting it all get to you — again. I could go on, but: I seem to always find a way to formulate the perfect storm.IMG 0013 - Quarantine ThoughtsIt manages to constantly be a long road getting here, but at some point I always come back to: I’m not doing that anymore. Not subscribing to the beliefs and expectations of others, even if I do care about them — that’s an unrelated fact. Choosing to disregard society’s projection of how I should be spending my time, how I should succumb to feeling like I’m unproductive if I don’t learn 3 new languages and memorize Tiger King by the time this all concludes. Blinders are a beautiful thing! The older I get, the more I realize the crucial role they play in progress. There are endless opinions, beliefs, systems, and ideas in this world, but at the end of the day, you only need to commit yourself to your own + be dedicated to continuing in that direction.

 

Thanks for letting me ramble! I hope you’re all spending this time at home however you see fit for your best and highest self. Consider this your reminder to stay committed to becoming the best version of yourself possible, but to always utilize grace 🙂

 

Stay safe, happy, and healthy!

 

Screen Shot 2020 04 15 at 4.45.15 PM - Quarantine Thoughts

Share this:

  • Click to share on Twitter (Opens in new window)
  • Click to share on Facebook (Opens in new window)

beach style oc bloggers Orange County bloggers summer style

Balancing Mindsets
My Tips on Staying (Semi) Sane!

Theme by The WP Club | Proudly powered by WordPress