Well, well… This feels like meeting an old friend for dinner. It’s been too long- where to begin?!
For one thing: welcome (or welcome back) to Living Kendra Lauren! I feel a little background is in order: I first began blogging back when I was 19. It quickly became the perfect hobby to supplement my two true passions: fashion and writing. I was studying at FIDM at the time, and it was the most ideal after-school, after-work activity to keep myself occupied. I hate sitting still and tend to fill every moment with some kind of project (it’s clearly an issue, but I honestly have no intention of changing my ways. #stubborn).
Post-graduation, it was difficult for me to find a healthy balance between working fulltime and blogging (in addition to being in a relationship; those things require a lot of energy/ attention- ya know?!).
In a wild twist of events, 2016, aka the year I gave up blogging, has been incredibly… progressive, we’ll say… And has taken me places I could have never imagined for myself. In the best and worst of ways. I found myself single, 21 (cheers), anxious, hopeful, inspired, and in all, feeling more lost than ever. This is a feeling I have since learned to embrace, because I have learned that even the people and things we think are for certain can be taken from us at any given moment. This has caused me to re-think where (and whom) I place my security in. Ever since I can remember, I have always been ‘the girl with a plan.’ I learned that life just doesn’t work that way- and that’s actually the beautiful part about it: that we have the opportunity to evolve and change our minds as we are exposed to new experiences, places, and people, so long as we give ourselves the permission and freedom to do so.
So there I was, in an entirely new season in my life. I felt broken-hearted and completely broken-down. I thought I was on the fast-track for a life I had imagined for myself, and in a moment, began to question every relationship, goal, and dream I once had. At the same time, I felt so relieved that things were *finally out of my control, because I had been watching my life head in a direction that I no longer felt connected to or passionate about, but that I was living simply out of convenience and ease.
2016 was full of adventure, and I certainly wouldn’t have made it through without a few special people who knew when to make lighthearted (often inappropriate) jokes to get me laughing, or when to let me cry on their shoulders and say nothing at all. All in all I feel (sorry… about to be so cliché) so blessed, and I have a whole new understanding of that word; I’ve learned that it is less about having and more about recognizing. What good is what we have if we don’t recognize the good that it is?
I have missed blogging so much! Sharing my life with others: strangers, old friends, family, those I have never met in ‘real life’, and those who have been gracious enough to endure my asking “will you take an outfit picture for me?” every time we hang out (God bless you guys, seriously. You know it’s never just one picture) fills my heart with so much joy, and I hope you are all living fulfilling lives full of daring risks and boundless love- because you deserve it all.
If you stuck with me through all that- XOX. That’s it for now, but I love you all and can’t wait to get back to sharing my life with you 🙂